the week from HEdouble hockey stick

yeah this has been a bad week..and this one is not looking good either. Ryan went to his first day of both schools on Tuesday. The first being Dart. He starts at 8:30 am and Mark met us there to see Ryan in. Well he cried when we were trying to leave and was screaming and kicking. The teacher says just go ahead and go he will be fine.(I see my Dh's eyes coming out of his head) All the way down the hallway we hear him and my heart is breaking but I know he need this. The good news is when I picked him up he was all smiles and in his own little ways he told me what he did. The Teacher sent a note that said he cried for 5 minutes and then played with all the new toys and made new friends.

So in the afternoon was the 1st day for the regular pre-school..I am nervous and really still don't think he will make it. The TSS met us there and took him with a little bit of tears but he walked in with Brandon too. SO I get my van and part of me is just heartbroken and the other is like WOW Silence and I will have some me time for the first time in many years today but I figured dont get used to it. I did mange to get in a catnap.LOL

We picked him up from school and to my amazement the teachers said he did really well. He sat and followed directions and was not the most misbehaved kid there!
(WOOOOHOOO) Well the next day he just has the afternoon pre-school so we take him and the Tss is there and what a difference. Ryan cried and screamed and kicked and punched and refused to go in...one word he says clear...GO! So I did not force him to go since this was not really a necessary school for him like Dart wit the speech is so I did manage to have one day to myself but now I have my little buddy home with me every afternoon which is still alot better then when all 5 are here so I still get semi-me time. And for the Dart preschool..he still hesitates but every day he gets better.

Brandon, Brittney and Kevin..no complaints they love school and are managing good grades so far too!
Now Alyssa on the other hand she has cried everyday so far. She refuses to go to school. She cried on her way into school and on the way out..yeah the way out too! If she does not see me/DH or Brittney she will freeze and start crying. Today was a bad day for her too because Brittney has a bad cold and stayed home so ALyssa cried the whole morning and I had to drag her to the van and the teachers aide had to pull her fro the van to her classroom. I talked to the teacher and she said within the few minutes she stops crying and is perfect as she can be...the most well-behaved and she made her first A+ pn Friday.

Times like this really makes me want to homeschool my kids but I know I am not ready for that emotionally or financially and maybe in time I will but right now I just have to deal with and pray for the best outcome for each kid. God is Good no matter what we choose for our kids...he will see us through and for that I am grateful!