the question of homeschooling again....

I was reading over some blogs this morning when I cam across someone mentioning about homeschooling...the pros and cons...this is a mother who has many many children who does not home school but I guess is pondering it.

I have been pondering this same thing for quite awhile....and alot of her pros and cons are exactly what I think of. About 6 months ago I pretty much figured just give it up on homeschooling. I could never do it. First I work and I need to work..we could no way go on one income...I know you are supposed to put it in Gods hands but with out any detail we all ready do for the most part and he has provided alot already...we are still struggling with me working so struggling any more would be a nightmare to me.

The next big thing on why I could not is I am not ORGANIZED at all....oh my..I have organized un organization..if that makes sense...it always is a scavenger hunt and always late and oh I forgot to do that but it does always work, but with homeschooling I would not want to take that chance with my kids education.

I feel those are the 2 things holding me back....if I could just work on those..and actually the me not being organized scares me the most...I am one who will discipline myself and it will lasts for a couple of weeks and then boom..back to the drawing board.

My Husband is also not a big fan of homeschooling..I am sure I can change that a little..but it would be a struggle and will it be worth it in the end because I would feel pressured to show him that it works and if it doesn't well I hate being told I told you so! he also knows how unorganized I am and that alone is enough for him to say not a good ideal...

So here I am again today pondering this whole homeschooling thing again..I tell myself it just a phase...like a kid with a new video game...but I also feel like God is trying to reach out to me..maybe not to home school completely but to take a stand to prepare for what might come...
With the blog this morning and then taking my son to pre-school a lady sees me walking with 4 of the kids and she smiles and says are you a homeschooling mom and I just replied no for now I am not but you never know in the future. Also I am in midst with my 6 year old who is 1st grade...we might have to hold her back which is killing me but I know it has to be done...the school doesn't want to of course..just push them threw and they will catch up but I know she is not where she needs to be so that has brought this up again...

I know there are alot of families that struggle with this and it seems to be such a hard choice to make....in the end though I know that no matter what choice we did was best for us as a family.

Friday night and nothing to do....

So here I sit here on my night off from work which is a rare thing and my Dh is watching the hockey game and my kids are watching the new Spongebob in the girls bedroom on my TV from my bedroom...(I never get to watch TV and now I still don't.) I thought it would be nice to have some me time but I hate it..no one to talk, play games or watch something we all can watch. I already read enough to hurt my brain today and if the air was not so chilly I would go for a nice walk. What to do..what to do?

We did mange to take the 4 little ones to ride their bikes today...I would post some pix but yeah you guessed it..I forgot the camera.LOL

I was even hoping to see some of my friends online so we can chat but hey its Friday and they are all busy."sigh" Well the bright side is I know where all my kids are and my Dh too so life is grand! GO PENS!

Is it too late to make a new years resolution?

Yeah I really need to keep up with my blog...I read so many and they are awesome and here is mine...

first I have to be more familiar with the computer...it takes me forever to figure out just how to post a pic..then its getting some pictures...need to have camera handy more..

I feel like a stalker sometimes..I love to read blogs...see how other families live..since i have a thing for large families those are my favorite..but is only fair if I post more often too..so better late than never but am sure going to try!

On the third day he rose!

Happy Easter to all on this blessed day..he has risen..rejoice and be glad within!

Hope everyone is enjoying this wonderful day and remembers the real reason Easter1

Palm Sunday/thankfull for unanswered prayers.

So this is one of my favorites services at church and I have been looking forward to it. My Husband worked so I got all the kiddos dressed and out the door on time may I add..! Brittney was singing today with the kids choir and they were having the kids carry banners in at the beginning so I really wanted to see this..My parents and in-laws went to so I had to take Ryan for sure and was really praying he would stay in the nursery by himself...well I spent the whole hour in the nursery....but that was Ok....because....

God works in mysteriously ways. The lady in charge today is the only other mother that has alot of kids..they have 7. our kids hang out at church functions together and we were casual together but today we got into some in depth conversation since it was just me her and our kids. Just talking to her and to hear how she is struggling the same way as we are from money to parent/in-law problems just made me feel so much better. Everyone has a story and like me they hide it and go on like everything is ok but it really is not. We both just put it in Gods hands and do not want to burden other people with our problems even though we know that our family at church know and they do so much for us without knowing the whole situation. We are so blessed to be in such a small and close knit church where everyone knows and looks out for each other.

I have been debating about going to another church since my church(which I was baptized in) is so small and maybe on a regular Sunday there are only about 20 kids and 12 are from us two mothers.LOL Today has made me realize that I as one of the only few younger members who attends regularly needs to step up to the plate more and show my passion for Christ at church more(which I lacked there) and not just at home..I know some are scratching there heads but I know and he knows what I mean!

It was great to talk to her so freely and not be judged about my family size, our financial situation and working out of the home because she does too! How awesome is our God!