RECONNECTING

I have been so blessed the last couple of months especially weeks to get in touch with some old friends. There was a period in my life that I lost pretty much all touch with everybody. Having 4 kids in 5 years and working in a different area led me to not seeing to many or keeping in touch.

Now my kids are getting older and I work in my area again I see more poeple and have time to talk or go out with them. The computer had helped too(Kudos to myspace). It makes you realize how some friends can be out of your life for so long and you can just hop back into the friendship..thats a true friend.

The memories come floating back and they make you smile when you are down...The good times and the bad. What a blessing it his to have "friends" that care enough to be there for you..Now hopefully this can a lifelong thing...friendships that are real lasts forever!

Just one of thoses days............

Ok so this might be a vent/depression post. I had my cleaning spree yesterday and then I go to work and I cleaned more so today the complete opposite...I just want to lay around and imagine the house is quiet and watch some TV..OK REALITY SETS IN

Ya know I clean clean clean and for what it gets messy again..of course I have kids and they are little..understandable. I work 30 hours a week too and believe me its work...on feet 70% of hte time...so can we say stressed.

I just wish I had time to myself...yeah I am on the computer when I can..but the kids are climbing on me or around me and there is always noise in the background...When there is no noise I know that I am in for it...A big mess or just something that should not be!

Does anybody offer to help me out...no...I have to ask and then they do it. People make the comments that I should be happy that my kids and DH clean up for me that there families do nothing and I get happy but now looking at it its not that great. I have to ask, beg, plead and they yell and argue.

Am I appreciated.........I really dont think so.......and that all around!

SO what really burns me is when I work my DH has a free ride...his parents come up here every night I work(never when I am home) so he has extra hands and yeah he thinks they dont count but they do....I am all alone when he is at work and I am the one cleaning and worrying about this and taking them here while yelling, picking up the mess or stopping it from happening.

The whole thing is today I do not feel good at all,,I am just worn down and my body hurts. My chest feels like my boys are sitting on it and I have a stress headache that I got last night and it never went away. I cant even enjoy being sick(if you know what I mean?) Enough ranting..time to make dinner! sigh

Cleaning Mode ON!

9:30 AM Phone rings......The speech thereapist is rescheduling Ryans Appt for today at 1:00PM....UGH Clean Mode turned on!

I rushed and had the whole house cleaned and presentable by 12:00 pm and I even took a shower! It probally helped that I just had Ryan here this morning...Brittney, ALyssa and Brandon stayed the night at Grandmas...So they were not here to help but when I was done cleaning a room it stayed clean :).

This is going to be a long journey with the speech therapist for Ryan..She will be comming once a week for a year..so I know the house will be spotless a lot more..LOL

As of now he says no words...just UGH and points and screams...So we wil lsee if this helps!

Look The house is cleaned and I have an hour before I leave for work and just one kid...hmmm maybe some TV watching!!!

For DH Aunt April and anybosy else who has cancer

Prayer:

We pray for all those undertaking chemotherapy "chemo.” the use of medicines or
drugs to treat disease, that the Lord will work out His perfect will in your situation and
bring about healing. We ask that The Great Physician will heal all those that have
undergone surgery and radiation therapy and that the fire of God will destroy all the
cancer cells. We speak peace to all the patients and ask the healing virtue of Our Lord
God will flow through every vein, tissue, cell, ligament and that healing will manifest.
We believe that Gods desire is manifest in your life. His desire is written in 3 John 2
“Dear friend, I pray that you may enjoy good health and that all may go well with you,
even as your soul is getting along”. We speak peace to all the families having cancer
patients. We speak uncommon provisions to cater for all the expenses needed to take
care of the patients. We destroy every generational curses and declare that they will not
continue but the blessings of God will overshadow each and every one of you. We are
in agreement with Gods word in Jeremiah 30:17 “ But I will restore you to health and
heal your wounds declares the LORD.” So be it, in Jesus Name. Amen.

My three year old

So my little "B"....what a piece of work he is. Out of all the kids he has the all around personality. I say he will run for mayor one day!

He can have his moments and they can be pretty bad...the temper is starting to come out of him but he is so funny when he does it. When we actually have to correct him and he throws his fits and me and DH have to hide our faces and laugh at him because even though he gets our blood boiling its so darn cute..his faces and comments.

He is also the one who loves to give kisses and hugs for no reason....And he also does it when he is in trouble and says hte littel sorry mommy to go along with it. He is also the instigator in the family too..its never him always someone else too.

But the minute you ask him to help I get "sure" "No problem mommy" and "Yes Ma'am"!
HIs knew thing is to let us know how he wasnt us to answer his questions...its become quite funny in the last few weeks...some examples

"B" Mommy can I climb up and get some cookies?
"MOM" (pauses be fore I could get to answer)
"B" You say yeah!


"B" Can we got to the Zoo today?
Mom (starting to answer)
"B" You say Go Ahead

"B"Daddy said its time for bed!
"Mommy" (looking at the clock)
"B" You say NO!

So its our running joke between me and DH right now...How cute these little 3 year olds can be

Just little thought/vent

Did you ever just get in one of those moods and wonder "what if" and "now what" Everyone says they have no regrets I even say that but deep down yeah I do...I think we all do. We think if went down road A we would be at Road C not Road b and Vice Versa. You know regert does not mean change completely and go a whole new direction...just a detour..ya know. Instead of doing this at this time do it at another and maybe you will end up at the same place but with more options.

So I sit here and I think would I change anything in my life...well of course I would but for me to know and no one else but the big guy upstairs. And I beleive he himself does everything for a reason even if there is heartache, stress and unhappiness. I keep alot of stuff to myself which I know is bad...I think I am scared of going on that "detour" I like to stay on schedule but is it worth it..really worth it. No matter what someone will always get hurt and I gues I cant keep everyone happy but its time to do it for mayself. But would that be worth it?

So that why I am taking it one day at a time and pray that I will get led down the path I need to go!

Blessings!

Some other pix from Kennywood

So I know I would keep up with posting and here it is a month in between the last....we have bee SO busy lately not just with us working but going here and there. Softball is over but we still had a field trip with the Brownies to the zoo. My son sill has boy scout meetings once in awhile and he leaves for camp next week :(. I have been taking him to band every morning for the last 2 weeks and this is the last week!:)

We went to Kennywood once and Idlewild once. We have passes to Idlewild so plan on going again! We did the zoo twice too. We had a grad party for my niece last weekend which we were there all day!!! And of course work work work!

Yesterday we went to Amish country in Ohio! I am in love with the Amish! We stopped for some baked goods and bread and went on a tour of there houses and school house and did a buggy ride! So interesting to see how they live and they are so polite to us "tourists" I hope to take my mom out with out any kids!LOL we'll see. So hopefully I can continue to posts more! Still have alot of learning to do with this blogging too!

God Bless!