so much to say and so little time

I have so much on my mind I want to blog about but just cant find the time to write it all down.
First off I am going to say little about me since so many people are e-mailing me so many questions esp from my Facebook account so I though I could answer it all here.

Yes I have 5 kids and yes I want more...unfortunately I have to work because money is tight thanks to not being prepared for this 10 years ago...Alot of mistakes have been made by both my husband and I. God has seen has through alot and got us out if alot of lows in our lives concerning money...I would love to quit but this is the norm for us right now...I have worked from day one. I get alot of slack from SAHM but I feel that working does not make us bad parents or are children bad/neglected kids. My saying is "its not how much time you spend with your kids its what you do with them in time you are with them." I would hate for my husband to work 2 jobs and never be home to enjoy family time too. he already works 45-55 hours a week now. I have been blessed that I work for my husband and I do pretty much get to make my won schedule..we usually work opposite shifts when needed or take the days off we want. So it all works out! God will provide to those who are patient.:)

Second is my oldest is to a previous relationship...I was the unthinkable "teenage mommy" I know some people are judging me already but remember who does the ultimate judging in the end. I was not a bad teenager..not at all..To this day I have never smoked cigs or did any kind of drug. I have also had NO alcohol beverage..I have sipped a few mix drinks to taste them and they are all awful to me. The joke at work is I don't drink or smoke I just make babies! LOL

So back to the teenage Pg...well lets just say I was with my sons father from 7th grade till about I was 19 on and off...we were neighbors(he lived 4 houses down from me and we were in the same class. My parents loved him and we all got along. Well summer before my senior year I ended up PG but not alone...........I had the support of the father and my parents and his and all the extended family. I was due in March just 3 months before graduation. I went to school everyday and still manged a 4.0(No Clairton jokes here for the locals) I went to school until the day I gave birth..and was back to school 3 weeks later but was home schooled from the district for the 2 weeks prior to going back. I am thankful for my mom who stayed at home with my son and helped out alot while I was at school.

In June both me and Kevins dad graduated and in the fall we both went to the community college together while our parents watched our son. He was working and later on I picked up a job too since we could get no government help(that's a whole other vent/blog). The Christmas before Kevin turned 2 me and his dad decided to call it quits..on good terms and friends. We were just not meant to be and we knew it. All was good between us for about a year and then we grew more apart once we started dating other people. I don't want to bore you so I will save that dram for another day...and yes lots of drama on that!

On a side not about my pg.....I believe God works in mysteriously ways because Kevins dad was not close with his mom at all..I hardly knew her(his dad raised him). Well I found out I was pg and he called her immediately...she came around helped with the baby shower and was even in the delivery room with me. Well when Kevin was about 6 weeks old she found out she had cancer and died 7 months later..She got to see/hold her first grandchild and made peace with her son.

So today is the day of the big memorial service for Michael Jackson. Of course I am going to watch it...was I a fan..I guess you can say that..not no huge diehard fan but I listened to him. There is no doubt he is, was the best entertainer ever...aside from all the drama of his life.

Now I will say that I still do not believe he harmed any kids in any way...I will stick with that and I argue it alot. Come on...all those kids he had at his ranch all those years and only one family accused him of anything and that's same family got in trouble for extorting more money from another celebrity. By now I would think some of those kids would have said something if anything happened to them while there. Everything comes out with all the sources these days so I would think more would have came out by now if it was true.

I do believe he had "slumber parties" with them which I find odd but to him he was immature and was reliving his childhood through that which leads to his childhood...He did not have One! That is also playing a big part in the way he ended up. Shame on his parents for that.

So all the tributes are coming to an end and now the media circus begins...who gets the kids, were they his kids and what about the money and will neverland ranch become the next Graceland? Well Jon and Kate are on Vacation for the summer so we need some kind of other dram to follow right?

On a side note, since MJ death my 7 year old is fascinated with him. She never really heard of him until then and now She looks him up on youtube(with my permission and observing of course) and watches all the videos of his music when on the TV..and today she is waiting patiently for his funeral....every 5 minutes I get asked when is it on. I had my doubts about exposing her to it but it is history and I am also fascinated by her curiosity into it...

Have a blessed day!

Debbie

some pix of our summer so far

all these fancy blogs

I still consider myself new to blogging....been trying now for about two years..I dont post as often as I would like and would love to post more pictures too. I do read alot of blogs daily but I have found more and more of them to be so "fancy" I admit I am not a decorative/fancy person to begin with and I am still not that great at all this technology stuff. I guess I am just a plain Jane type of blogger.

I hope someday to learn how this fancy stuff for my blog but until then I have to settle for a simple blog...Iam sure working 30+ hours a week with the 5 kids is not a help in doing more for my blog. I am also big on Facebook! I am addicted to that right now..it was Myspace but FB is way better. I also TWIT..well not lately..still not in to the Twitter thing but I do have an account...wow..whats going to be next?

Hope everyone is enjoying the Summer so far! I know we are!

Blessings!

Debbie :)!

Disturbing time at work...........

So as many know I work in a grocery store part time at night and I see all kind of people and many things that bother me too. You know the kids getting yelled at by their parents for no reason or are just being ignored or hearing the language that comes out of the parents mouth while yelling at the kids. I have many stories but this one we stick with more for awhile

Last night our Loss prevention guy caught a shoplifter. I saw him take the girl upstairs and he told me to call management. With this girl(and I mean girl..she just turned 21) was a newborn baby boy and a little girl who was no more than a young 2. Usually I have to go upstairs as a female witness and I kind of said do I really have to go because I will not be able to handle seeing those kids...well 5 minutes later I get paged to the upstairs office.

So I walk in and she is getting drilled by the Loss Prevention guy and the police were on their way. She had no ID and had recent theft on her record She was addicted to Heroin and now on methadone to control that.

The police come up and they are really drilling her....she could not tell the same story twice and very defiant and would not shut up...I was ready to get out of there..I already teared up looking at the girl just sitting there not knowing what was going on and imagining whats going through her head as her mom and cop are fighting back and forth. The cop finally said to her look I am tired of yelling at you and looking like a bad guy in front of your daughter...so he looks at me and asked if I can take her out.

the little girl was a little hesitant at first but I took her to get some cookies. She was so adorable..I got her talk a little..she had a purse and a baby doll. i asked her what her babies name was and she just smiled and said baby. I said to her so you are a big sister and she says yeah and I said what is his name and she says baby.LOL

Well we are walking through the store and I knew the police were searching the parking lot for her BF. Well the little girl turns the bend with me and says daddy! Now I Panic like now what do I do...he asked who are you and why are you with her and where is the baby and my GF..I just said she is upstairs with the baby and I am not sure what was going on.. I was just asked to take her to get a cookie. I was hoping I could get him upstairs because I did not want him to take her out of the store yet and he did follow me up. We get up there and now him and the cop are going at it and the little girl is just holding on to him as tight as she can to him..I tear up again. So I sat in on the rest and come to find out she is already dealing with CYF so they were called but the kids went home with her..and she also has another kids at home..

After was all said and done I juts went to my office and cried. How sad to see that first hand..we hear about it but that just made it all the real. I just pray for all this little kids who suffer through stuff like this on a daily basis.

Way too busy for mee.........

It has been a crazy two weeks here..school letting out and all the summer activities beginning...
Our school has a free music programs for the next 4 weeks will consist of me driving two kids to the high school at two different times for lessons....We are going to try out the free stuff at the library this year...hoping Ryan will behave for it....that scares me.... and the local park is having a summer program every day at through the summer..and its all FREE!!!!!which is great for someone with alot of kids.

We went to Kennywood for the school picnic..my husband told me to stay home because they were calling for rain well I should have listened..we left the park by 6:00 but it started raining at 3:30..ugh..I was watching my $120 flowing down the drain with the rain...

My son left for the beach this morning with his dad...he will be gone a week....he is gonna have a busy summer too...he goes to boy scout camp for a week in July then the whole month of August is Band Camp...his first year...and out band is the best band in the area of western PA (not just saying that..really..they always take 1st place) which equals long days of practice...

And of course I am still working....(sigh) Its easier though now that school is done...Hopefully we can do some other fun things with the kids this summer too..and one day I will learn how to post pictures...

Cedar point

I volunteered to chaperon my sons 8th grade band trip to cedar point with a few other mothers I knew....it was a 4 hour drive for us. We left at 6:30 am and arrived around 10:30. Well the bus ride was not as long as I thought it would be but silly me sat on the back of the bus..wont do that again...that's where the loud kids sit.

So we get to the park and this was my first time there and wow its a very big park! Of course I hit the train first with the other mothers..I wanted to do the thrill rides but since I was the youngest mother there and the only to do such a thing so I didn't get to ride them:(. The one mother who I work with did ride two coasters with me...they were the small ones but I took what I can get. I also took a little boy who came with us on the Gemini..a big wooden roller coaster.

the kids were behaved...no trouble..actually they were pretty good and funny..alot of times they had me cracking up... We did have a girl get hurt as soon as we got there..she fall while getting on a ride and hit her head on the concrete..we rushed over to first aid to check on her(than goodness the one mother with us was a nurse practitioner) She had a mild concussion so could not ride the rest of the day..her BFF stayed with her and did not ride either..now that's a friend!

Well it was a long day and we got back home at 1:00 am..and some kids didn't not even sleep on the bus...I am thinking of taking my family back there for a day but the food was so expensive there that I have my doubts but I do want to ride those big rides...we'll see.

Have a great week!

Debbie

Of course I took no pictures...I forgot my camera!